clearing drafts - 9/9/25 1.25 am
Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
After years I was in this slump, akhirnya aku berjaya keluar juga. Bak kata pepatah, it takes a village to raise a child kan, but for my thesis, I think it takes a whole nation to complete this journey.
Kan orang cakap, PG is a lonely ride. Yes, it was lonely. But to be honest, my ride only bergerak due to the high support and dorongan from everyone. It was never really me who menggerakkan .... it was them:
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my supervisor: giving me topics, direction, and redirection
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my co-supervisor: motivating me to search for deeper knowledge
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my uni (and SV grant): providing me financial freedom
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our MNM and degree chingu: deep talks, consultations, and heavy discussions on research topics
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the students during TA experience: giving me the opportunity to fulfill my dreams
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PG community: giving time to socialise, expand networks, and learn new things
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experts (high school friends, classmates, seniors): extensive validation of my lengthy work with nothing in return
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and of course, my father and mother: endless financial and mental support, and the main support in achieving the respondents’ target
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to the respondents, thank you for taking your precious time to complete the survey
I was just there, assembling the information that had been given by everyone. Slowly… aju aju slowly.
To be honest, Master was never in the plan. And the only objective was… to prove to myself that I CAN DO BETTER. Since I did not give my best during my degree years, I was hoping to demonstrate how far I could fly while doing Master. But it was totally… the opposite.
Never… never in my life have I done such a cincai task like that. My thesis draft was produced by the worst version of me, and seriously, it was the worst version of my work. It felt quite unfair, honestly, submitting the draft while I was given the opportunity to chase the angan-angan of my dream.
Thank you, Allah. Alhamdulillah. Allah helps a lot. And I redeemed myself a bit during the correction round. All I hope now is to complete this journey without another hiccup… and ...
I think I discovered now… I have a dream.
Please pray for me.
